Over 3 years later :)

I didn't realize that I had a blog from November 2006- but here it is , April 2010, and I will begin again!
Life is about beginnings. So much has happened since November 2006. In November 2007, I won Team BeachBody's 10,000 dollar success story contest and was able to get down to a total of 126lbs.
My father died a month after I won the award. I was so glad he got to see me be healthy and to be in the video, and to see me win. I also had to get a hysterectomy April 2008, a gall bladder removal June 2009 and was hospitalized in October 2009 with what I thought was a mini stroke but turned out to be something called complicated migraines.
After those health issues, and a few other things that were very difficult in my life, I realized that I have a food addiction. Like alcoholics turn to alcohol, crack heads turn to crack, I turn to food. It's nothing you can abstain from and it's all about keeping a balance.
Nearly 30 of my 126lbs came back on by March 2010. Sure I still had most of it off, but I was binging on 100 calorie packs and other "low fat" foods and while still working out, was putting on weight. The simple math goes like this- more calories in than out=weight gain. Plain and simple.
I started to feel like a huge failure but realized that I had to look at my weight issues not so much as a personal failure but as an issue of food addiction that needed real treatment- not just another "diet" or a quick fix.
I decided to call a place called the Renfew Center which is a world renowned eating disorder clinic founded in Philadelphia. They told me that they have an Intensive Outpatient Program (IOP) and they would do an intake and see if my insurance would cover it.
Turns out that my insurance does cover it and I started 2 weeks ago- have been there for 6 session. I've learned a lot in that time but still have a way to go. I am now down 10lbs but that's just a side effect of not binging and not turning to food as comfort. I am also reading Geneen Roth's books about food addiction and am very excited for my new journey-and thrilled that my size 14 jeans don't HURT anymore! :)
I want to blog here- and I also have a facebook. Sometimes I feel that I give out TMI but it's part of who I am- so if it's something that someone is not comfortable with- I don't want to edit myself nor my thoughts because it's part of the healing process.